Hiccups
I have been crying, and trying not to cry, for hours.... in the office with people hugging me, with my bosses, in the bathroom, walking down the hall, seeing all the things that remind me that I’ve spent five years here. I have grown up here and can honestly say that I’ve always loved it, even when it was practically ruining my life. I love the people I work with, and especially the ones I work for. I love the ones I’ve met and the lovely incestuous world of the web. I love everything I’ve learned. It feels like home. It is home. I’ve spent more hours in these walls than in any one home in my life.
I can’t remember when I’ve been this sad.
I was given the option of staying through December 15th, and I am leaning towards that. My severance is pretty good, and they’re going to fund a fabulous new computer or two.
Thank you so much everyone who has been incredible, helpful, comforting, empathetic. I need you, you’re helping. You’re awesome.
I have the hiccups, a hangover, and am backing up the files I want to keep on my work machine.
Dear Lord, last night was fun! I had a girls’ night with Mihow and Maria. We must rinse, repeat.
I had 11 million beers and can think of at least two stories that I started to tell but didn’t reach the point.
point #1 - I was telling you our body weights when we (dave and I) started going out because as a lark I gave Dave a piggy back for about a block through Baltimore, just to show how strong I was, despite being tiny (then).
point #2 - I started telling you about Emily (and all that wacky dorm room stuff, and about what went with peanut m&ms) because the craziest thing.... after a few hours our minds somehow synced up and for at least three sentences our words were identical in word, timing and tone. And then we both screamed, laughed, and ran inside.
as to why I’m here at this hour....
All I will say is that someone pretty critical got the ax, and today we’re having an ominous meeting at 9:30. So I’ve got a touch of the paranoia. It’s good to leave few traces on a work machine anyway. This is a project I should have done a while ago.
8:30 is an hour and a half before people usually show up, and my office is very quiet.
How in the hell did you manage to get up today? There must be something wrong with me. Dude.
mostly it was a mix of panic, addrenaline and disorientation.
which fits perfectly, i did get laid off today, details TBD.
Hey Mia,
I’m so sorry to hear about it. Now I guess you’ll have time for side projects?? I manage about five of our web sites. If a good project comes up, I’ll contact you.
DOH! I was wondering why you weren’t on IM today… didn’t think to check your site until now. you’re awesome, and i’m sending you lots of good luck vibes.
love ya babe, chin up, have fun while you can. unemployment is a great way to get stuff done… so much free time!
Poor little thing, I feel so bad. I can’t imagine how that must feel. So sad. They are dumbasses for letting you go, they’ll be sorry someday!
i guess you won’t even have to be unemployed if you don’t want to be! i’m glad natty g has more sensibilities about letting people go than my last job did.
i’ve never stayed at a job for five years, but i can understand that would be rough to not be able to be in as close contact with the people you’ve developed such close relationships with.
i believe you’ll find something that makes you happy, even if it isn’t as special as good ol’ natty g has become.
thanks honey. it’s just way bigger than a job here ....
i’ve lost my heart for the work here, but not for the people. i feel very odd (weaving in and out of shock i think, grieving)
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